I'm a reader of fan fiction and I know fan fiction kinda has this stigma of being really weird and sexual but trust me when I say that some fan fiction is some of the most beautifully written work I've read. I think it's authors ability to capture characters is what I really admire about fan fiction writers.
In the post I just wanted to talk about this recent fanfic that I read and just the feels.
So I recently reread a fanfic called
the heart where i have roots and it is probably my most favourite fanfic ever and trust me, I've read a ton of fan fiction.
It's of course a kpop fanfic but omg it's the most heart-wrenching and cute and just amazing thing I've ever read.
I like the fanfic because they managed to capture the personalities of the Korean idols perfectly without talking about kpop at all. I could really imagine the kpop idols whilst reading the story and ugh perfect characterisation.
The story was also really heart-wrenching but without using cheap methods to make the reader sad. Like there are really obvious and and what I like to call "cheap" ways to make a person sad like character death or an illness or some really dumb coincidence that just ruins everything BUT this story manages to do this in a way that I could really appreciate.
The storyline is pretty amazing and the way it was written was just A+ and it just made me feel so many emotions and I think that's key to a good piece of writing.
The more I think about why I like this fanfic, I think it's because I feel like I can really relate to the main character, Jongin because in the story he has this sort of needy and stubborn and deluded and is just bad with his feelings in general personality that I can really relate to ((I'm a horrible person and I hate it)). I feel like I really disliked Jongin's personality but I couldn't really dislike him because I just saw so much of myself in him.
And Jongin's love interest (if we can really call him that) (you'll have to read it to understand what I'm talking about) (pls read it) Chanyeol, who is a male, is just a perfect match for Jongin and Jongin really doesn't deserve him but they are such a good pairing.
Chanyeol's personality is everything I want in a guy. There's just something about how giving and selfless he is that I really love about him.
This story really hit home for me, because I could just see so much of myself in Jongin and I could just see myself facing a similar situation to Jongin.
If only I could have the same happy ending that Jongin has sigh
If you are going to read the fanfic (which I really recommend you do because it's just amazing) (even for non-kpop fans) (though it might be slightly confusing) (and maybe the feels won't hit you so hard) (BUT STILL) there are a couple of korean words used in the story. I'm pretty sure you can look them up on urban dictionary but a word that's used a lot in the story is hyung.
Hyung is a word used by korean males to adress another male older than them who they are close to.
Hyung literally means "older brother"
The female version of this word is oppa.
-urban dictionary
And also the pairing is a gay otp, just as a heads up for people who might feel uncomfortable with that.
But all in all this fanfic is one of my most favourite things I've read and I realise it might not be for everyone but I just had to share it because even though I've read this a couple of times the story just hits the feels and ugh I love it
"I realized I never actually confessed to you," says Chanyeol, and Jongin closes his eyes. "I just sort of let you fill in the blanks, and maybe that's why it doesn't feel right, that you know."
Jongin grips the phone too tightly. There's an itch at the small of his back, and his lips are chapped. His stomach is tied up in a hundred tiny knots, or maybe it's folded up into a thousand of those tiny paper cranes Chanyeol makes out of the used Post-its that his research assistant throws into the recycling. "Okay."
"Jongin," Chanyeol says, his voice low and wobbly. "I love you. I love the way you make fun of me. I love how shy you can be, and your laugh, and the way you draw tiny cartoons on all your receipts from the grocery store and leave them around your apartment. I love the way you buy that pastry that you don't even like because you know I'm going to eat it off your plate, and I love—" he chokes on his words, and Jongin wants to hug him, and feel Chanyeol's heavy head resting on his shoulder. "I love the way you write, Kim Jongin, I love it so much… I love everything about you. Everything."
-quote from the fanfic
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