Is it weird that I've managed to keep a perfectly good relationship with a friend for nearly 10 years but am really starting to doubt that friendships that I have now that have lasted not even half as long?
I don't know if it's my increasing insecurities lately but I've been having dreams where all my friends have been turning against me.

A huge part of me is really really scared. I don't ever want it to happen.
I really don't know where this sudden I guess fear? is coming from.
There is nothing blatantly wrong with any of my friendships as of now.
It's probably me. Me and my constant over thinking.
Me and my abilities to pick flaws in anything.
Me and my forever judging.
sigh sigh sigh
forever flawed ash

sorry for the two sad posts
i haven't really been in the best state tbqh
i hope next week will be better!