Don't you just wish you could empty your head with all thoughts?
It's always something I do.
Not by myself but with the help of my friend alcohol.

Sometimes it's that bottle of vodka that gets you through the week. But the thing is, when you're not out of your brains wasted, those thoughts and feelings you thought you forgot, come back.

And not only do you have a massive hangover but you're caught up with all these problems, just swirling around your head and all you want to do is forget. So you drink.

And the cycle starts again.
The long cycle of pain and getting wasted. And every moment of pain seems to get longer and one bottle doesn't seem enough anymore.
Bearing all this pain is suppose to make you stronger but all you feel is weak.

What to do? Drink until I'm numb again or hurt until the hurt isn't hurt anymore and is just that dull feeling of nothingness.

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I honestly don't know what I am doing.
I felt sad and I felt like writing.
Please just ignore this.
But the again, you've made it this far...