I never wanted to be at anybody’s disposable. I watched movies and read books and also saw firsthand where girls followed boyfriends and even their own friends around just in case their boyfriend or friends ever need anything.

It disgusted me. How could anybody bear being around people, who only spoke to them when they needed something?

And then one day I finally understood.

Well I somewhat understood, I mean it still disgusted me but for once I felt like I could finally relate. My long time best friend and the person who I also happened to have fallen in with (cliché, I know) parent’s had divorced.

He had come from a family that was extremely tight knit and it had come as a shock when he had found that his parents were divorcing because his father had cheated on his mother.

I had never seen him as devastated as he was then.

During significant moments of my life songs just come to me that relate to the current situations. I remember his voice when he called me to tell me the horrible news. It was husky and he kept pausing and all I could think about was the song Time After Time by Cyndi Lauper.

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This isn't fully complete, but I felt bad for not posting!

I'll try to finish this within this week? AHAH

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