9 days into the new year and it has not been too bad.

My aunty gave birth to a baby boy on the third.

He's really precious and small.

There's something about babies that leave me all mushy on the inside.

Maybe because they're so pure and innocent and it gives me hope.

That the world isn't such a bad place AHAH

I once said that I didn't want kids.

Not because I find them annoying or stupid (I think that's kind of insensitive to say. They're kids how can you be so cynical about them?!)

I didn't want kids because I didn't want to ruin them. I didn't want to bring up someone who had a bad life.

I don't think I would be a good mother and it scares me to have to be responsible for someone's life.

But there's something about children that makes me happy to be around them. They're so carefree and happy and maybe that's something I've always wanted.

That's why I want kids. If I can't have it, at least I can give that to someone y'know?

lol yeah I want 3.

girl, boy, girl

x0xo

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